XOXO

maybe you can`t reash your dream.

just belive "

it`s adream that you dreaming

XOXO

رحمها الله.

فى هذه اللحظه...بالتحديدا
كم كنت اتمنى ان اكون اكبر من ذللك.
كم كنت اتمنى ان تأخّذ الكلمات موقفى.امام الالم والوحدة التى كنت اعيشها.
فقظ فى هذه اللحظة ان بالغت فى تعبيرى فكانت هى خاتمه ذكرياتى "لها"
التى لا اذكر منها الا القليل.
ولكنى على الاقل اذكر ..وهذا نادرا الان.

لو كنت اعلم انى سوف اوع ذكرياتى لها...فقط لو كنت اعلم.

كنت انا هذه الطفله التى لا أذكر انها يومأ كانت نظراتها توضح ماذا تريد.
وهذا لا يعنى انها لم تكن تريد ذلك.

لم تكن تعرف ما معنى ان يعبر المرء عما بداخله...لا لم تكن يوما.

كم تمنت ان تتلقى هذا الخبر بطريقة ادمية.
كم كنت اتمنى ان اتلقيه منشرحه الصدر.ولكن لم يكن باليد حيلة.
كان موعد لقائنا يفصلنا عنه "ساعه"

كم كنت انتظر هذه الساعه حتى اراها,كم كنت ادندن كلمات من الاغانى يملؤها الملل..فقط حتى يضيع الوقت.

تلقيت الخبر عندما جائنى ابن عمى يحكى لى عن ماذا يجرى فى بيت اختها..لم اكن اعلم انذاك
ولم يكن بالامر الهين ايضا..عندما فاجئنى بان هناك تجمع هائل هناك.
كنت طفله انذاك لم اكن قد صادفت هذه النوعيه من الامور.ولكنى ذهبت اتفقد ماذا يجرى.
كنت اخطو كل خطوة واعلم ان هناك خطأ ما...
ولكنى كنت اتجاهله...نعم فاليس من المتوقع ان تستجيب طفلة لهذة الامور..
وصلت...
رأيت اللون الاسود ع عشرات من الناس...كاد يعمينى.
ولكن هذا لم يمنعنى من معرفة ما يجرى بالداخل..ولكن

عرفت الان..
عندما اخبرونى بهذا..
"امك ماتت

شعرت بوخزة لا يشعر بها مثلى ..اقصد من فى سنى.
دخلت غرفتها رأيت كفانا ابيض...مغطى بجثه هامده.لم تودع ابنتها.
كانت ممدده على السرير.


كانت"ماتت نعم قبل مجيئى لها بساعه واحده

لم تستطع الانتظار ساعه

عندما ذهبت الى بيتنا بكيت وبكيت....لم اكن استطع ان اعبر الا بالبكاء..
كان مخرجى الوحيد..من هذا الكابوس


سمعن اختى بكائى قالت لى "لا حول ولا قوة الا بالله"

الشى الغريب أنى رايت هذه الوجوه تحاول ان تناسينى ما حصل ..كانوا يشفقون على ما اظن.


الشى الاغرب .....انى نسيت...


ولكن الذكريات لا تفارق صاحبها ما دامت له...


""وخاصه ان كانت المؤلمة منها



رحمها الله...

Belive

you not dreaming...

juat belive that you not dreaming when you see someone smile in your face,
when someone waiting you all the night and give you your favorite roses.
you not dreaming when you marry who you love.
you not dreaming if you see prad pitt at the star bukks (well maybe you are)
you not dreaming if you finish your high school.
you not dreaming if you see someone in your dream(sorry i forgot that you already asleep)
the most importing that you not dreaming if your life changed,or you changed.
just belive..then go to bed and i can`t do anything about that..it`s yor
Chance to dream.

Belive.

XoXo

never forget

the time had stoped.
the moon has going away.
the life is hard
but sometimes we just can`t say.
that all our life is all about how much you give.


do you know how many time i try to forget


i`m not proud but i`ll never regret.

I got them once but I will not get it again

but this great mimories will stay......always stay


i saw your pic hanging all the time in my mind.

i see your life in my own life.

i`v never want you to go.
coz i know it`s gonna hurt.

i have to forget what you came for.


xOxO

The Same

Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet.
Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go.
Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go.
My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy. Does it show?
I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.
And so I sent some men to fight, and one came back at dead of night.
Said he'd seen my enemy. Said he looked just like me,
So I set out to cut myself and here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.
Don't buy the promises 'cause, there are no promises I keep.
And my reflection troubles me, so here I go.
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake,
I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars.
Look at the stars fall down.
And wonder where did I go wrong.

Breathe Again"

Car is parked, bags are packed, but what kind of heart doesn't look back At the comfortable glow from the porch, the one I will still call yours? All those words came undone and now I'm not the only one Facing the ghosts that decide if the fire inside still burns All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again I'll breathe again Open up next to you and my secrets become your truth And the distance between that was sheltering me comes in full view Hang my head, break my heart built from all I have torn apart And my burden to bear is a love I can't carry anymore All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again It hurts to be here I only wanted love from you It hurts to be here What am I gonna do? All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again I'll breathe again